I am feeling the climate change very much. I guess we all do, I have had a few friends complaining about the lack of mood, sickness etc.
I actually really enjoy autumn, I have had such a long summer! I am pretty sure in about Decemeber or January I will change my mind and probably fly for a month to Thailand and India in order to recharge my solar batteries and eat fruits straight from the trees. Yet, so far I am happy being surrounded by the red and yellow colours.
Right now I am struggling for a little with my fruitarian meals since I have recently let myself go too many times. The more you let yourself go to more loose you become and the more ” addicted” you become to the wrong modern diet.
Partly it is due to the people I have been hanging out with, the other part was my conscious decision. A lot of people that surround me eat bad, thinking they actually eat well. A few people around me eat bad, being conscious it is bad for them but caring very little about it. When you try to be strict and suffered from bad food addictions, even seeing people eating the shit, tickles you. Even an invitation makes me crave, and think about the processed food I don´t wanna eat.
A message to all my dearest friends, I WILL BE SO GLAD IF YOU WILL NOT EAT CRAP IN FRONT OF ME and ESPECIALLY DO NOT INVITE ME TO TASTE IT. Thank you.
The reason why I am so strict with myself and what many people don´t understand is my health. People would often see me as a weirdo, just because I care about my body. Perhaps If I was born with good genes like some of my friends, who drink, eat crap, take drugs etc but still look fabulous I wouldn´t probably care. I remember my friend Naomi told me “If it´s not broken, don´t try to fix it.” It´s so true this.
Really if I had a prefect state of health I would just go crazy. But unfortunately I don´t. I am one of those sensible ones. I am sensible to toxins and bad food, I really need to watch out.
Last month taught letting myself go, off, between my health routine and my naughty times when i just let myself go, do whatever I want to do. In the first months of my fruitarian diet I was being super strict on myself, which at that time was very good. It taught me patience, commitment and it made me realise that YES I can do it, even though it sounded impossible. But, at the longer term, even though from my physical point I wasn´t craving, my mentality was getting weaker.. because I simply hate having any form of restrictions put on myself.
I feel as if I had found the right balance now. I let myself “eat normal” ( eat normal meaning not having my monofruit meal and having something that is fully processed like for example a soup) once in a while on a very special occasions and ONLY IF I FEEL LIKE doing it since I get invitations from important to me people all the time. I like to fully enjoy my life.